moanlog Thou Shalt Release

You're blocked from my Facebook for a reason dude; you update your status 5 times a second with the longest essays that would put an examiner to sleep, then you start commenting on other peoples stuff with your ridiculous “wisdom” and “wit” that you think is smart.

I get that you want me to remove pics of you from my Facebook, but why the fuck don't you detag and change YOUR security settings, bitch please!! If you knew your pictures would be seen by your precious family, you should NEVER accepted their friend request then. Your fault for being so fakely religious...you can't have your cake and eat it!!

stop joining those lame ass facebook profiles, GFY!!

why do blackberry users think they are 'above' iPhone users? One is clearly better...the other doesn't even compare...

It occurs to me now that I have been an addict since middle school, using drugs to numb the anguish from a perceived lifetime streak of inferiority. Along the way, there were friends and lovers in a degerating sequence of interest. Today, I see that everyone is gone and I am alone. Perhaps moving alone across the country and severing all ties to home at age 18 wasn't an idea rife with particularly adept foresight.

Today, I hide in the library and cry about long-gone ex-girlfriends, about the emotional reaction I experience when seeing others, about the dearth of social energy, about the regret of talent squandered and chances wasted.

Everyday I see others whose adversities are unavoidably conspicuous -- I feel a dull charge that I cannot help them in some way, though I feel an acute shock of guilt that I cannot get past my own self-induced issues and appreciate my able body and (once) clear mind.

Now, I see that I am sapping resources from a world that have an opportunity cost far greater than the return I could ever generate from them. The world would be economically better-off if someone else were breathing this air instead of me. The world would be economically better-off if someone else were absorbing the sunshine.

Today is perhaps the most hollow I have felt in my short life. I am glad this space exists for me to express this sentiment, because I certainly don't think that I should approach others with these concerns. If there is one thing I have learned as a young-adult, it's that there is no solace to be found in others -- they just want you to stop talking. And so, I shall.

Why is life unfair to some people more than others? God, please, give him a chance! He deserves better!

If I tell a colleage something that I have no formal obligation to share with them (but it would be helpful for them to know), I think I've done the nice, friendly thing by them. If said colleague then decides to tell everyone else in the team while I'm on my lunch break, they have been an utter shit and should be subject to a disciplinary. You BASTARD - who the fuck do you think you are?

Today has been awful. I wake up and the shower is broken. I go downstairs, run out of cereal. Car breaks down on the way to work, I LOSE MY JOB for being late too often (totally not), boyfriend breaks up with me, and wants to take the dog we got together with him. Tomorrow can only be better.

Failed my driving test. AGAIN. For the 4th time. Think I'll just take the bus now.

Im sorry that I didn't want to take your sister out. But I don't like her and don't think I should put myself out for you. So what if she doesn't have a boyfriend, a lot of people don't. I know I owe you a favor, but seriously. Not this. Not now.

These cat food commercials annoy me.

I wish there was hope that one day he might ask me to marry him. There isn't.

CARCRAFT > Visit to Lakeside Retail Park.
We reserved a car online, a Fiat Punto previously in the week & visited the retail park to pick up the car at 10.00am. We was greeted in a nice way, shown the car which had a flat tyre, took it for a test drive then returned to see a 20 foot flag fall over & smash onto a car. We then sat & waited, then waited. We kept getting told 20 minutes which turned out to be fucking 1 hour & 40 minutes, then told the car we wanted was refused on finance. Another car was being searched for after waiting for cunting ages sitting in a freezing cold environment like a fucking igloo. We finally got a decision on another car the same model & colour which was good (by a paki). We waited again for ages to get the finance agreed and was told 15 minutes which turned out to be a fuvking hour AGAIN. The website should state that visiting carcraft is a day out & what you get quoted online is a complete load of bollocks. The price kept jumping up & up & up, we was finally getting things finalised & told the car would be delivered to us on the day. Then was informed the car had no fucking log book, so we have to take time off of work to arrange this in the week. Then got phoned on the way home by another PAKI & was asked to be picked up by a driver & asked to be driven to Lakeside Park on the day after & for me to drive the car back home which is over 40 miles away after spending 6 hours in a freezing cold fucking car warehouse. We actually spent 11 hours away from our baby daughter in total. I find this totally & utterly unacceptable, I am so glad I didn't bring my daughter with me. I am never going to recommend you cunts to anyone, more so I am gonna advise people to avoid you cunts, the waiting time & lack of customer service Is absolute horse piss, would you wait in Comets all day to purchase a fucking Kettle??
NO YOU WOULDN'T your going on cuntscorner website you bunch of fucktards

Bloody hell.
I hate being the rock. The one everyone comes to about their problems. The one everyone expects to solve things for them. The one you phone at 10pm because you can't find someone and for some reason think that I would know where they'll be! I'm at home, talking to my friends on msn. Don't bother me unless its an emergency.
I like to know things, but don't tell my everything. I like to help with things, but I'm not superman. And I like to be there for you, but not for things that don't matter.
Go tell someone else for a change!!!!

Listen, I told you already that I'm not good in relationships. But, we can still have sex. Get with the program and things will be alright.

Maybe it's not been great so far. Maybe there's been stuff on my mind.
Its going to get better though, I promise you that.
And I'm sorry about it, but I can't help it what with the stuff that's going on.

It's great that we've found some common interests, but who the hell said I wanted to become your best friend overnight? I don't want you showing up here unannounced and I'll come to yours when I want to.

Tell me to my face. Dont bitch to your friends or whatever. Because just MAYBE this works two ways.

if your not "available" online.. then fucking sign out! rather than me wasting my time writing you messages for you to reply 2 hours later saying "i went for a shower and tea"
oh i forgot i had phsychic powers!

SO whats the deal with practically avoiding me ever since we started "going out"
christ, persue me for what? a year..then its like your bored and can't be assed. get some balls, you won't even hold my hand in public for christ sake
and no, cinema does not count because it dark!
can hardly end it now though, what with being "best friends" it'd be even weirder. THIS IS WHY I DIDNT WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE! but everyone insisted it'd be amazing, nothing would change, at leats get better
blah blah blah..
thanks for messing with my awesome life fuck wits, i now how a "boyfriend" of whom speaks to someone he's told me he doesn't like more than me!
fml!